Back to reality!
25 May 2010
We are back home in Germany since Sunday morning and today was my first day at work. I kind of felt like time has been turned back. Like if the last two weeks didn't happen at all. Reality hit me so hard again this morning, that all the good feelings I had till yesterday are somehow gone. Somehow I am just functioning again and not living like I've been in the last weeks.
The good thing is that after our trip to our future home I feel more confident than ever that our emigration plans are the right thing to do. When we first arrived in Huntington I was kind of depressed, because it was not exactly what I had imagined it to be. But with time going by, I realized that this is where I want to live. While spending time with our friends over there, I realized that this is how I want my life to be. And that thought and that feeling is what I will hang on to in the next months.
On the one hand this trip helped me a lot, because it grew more confidence in me for that whole US dream, I have been dreaming about like forever. But on the other hand this visit we paid our future hometown broke my heart. I already feel so homesick for Huntington, for our friends and for the feeling I had when being there, that it kills me. I so want to book the next flight over and just stay there.
My dream will stay a dream for at least another eight months. But in this eight months I will do everything I can and work as hard as I can to finally turn that dream into my own wonderful reality!